I’m an extremely driven person, at least, I think I am.
However, that doesn’t mean that I don’t get into a funk when it comes to my writing. There are times where I’m staring at my blank screen and frantically wonder what I’m going to place onto it. I begin writing… only to frantically tap the backspace button until I am, once again, viewing a blank screen.
By now, I’m sure that this article is a product of the problem I have just described. In an attempt to break free from this cycle, I’ve decided to write. Just write. Expel my mind. Mind dumping.
So, my dear readers…
Here’s what’s on my mind.
I am got my teeth fixed on Friday of last week and I'm still getting used to the idea that I do not have to put plastic caps in my mouth every two days.
This job I started back in October of last year has been keeping us afloat financially and I love the connections I've made with my co-workers. However, I would still rather earn my income on my own terms and will continue to make that dream a reality.
For the past few months, our family has been going through a financial travesty. Fighting to get the funds to buy diapers… let alone our household bills. — At the moment, without this job, we’ll drown.
I feel like I’m getting cabin fever. I have not left this house outside of a quick convenience store run or grocery pick up for a few months. Not a whole lot of expendable funds means staying home is pretty much all we can afford at the moment.
My children are growing quicker than I want them to. Leo is trying to talking in small sentences and can work our Nintendo switch better than I can. Lillian started school this year and is talking like a teenager. Our older boys Samuel (12) and Hunter (9) — are getting to the stage that they want to go out and rule the world. It’s scary.
I hate being vulnerable. Well, I suppose a better way of saying that would be that I hate other people seeing me vulnerable. I was always informed that the more people can see your weaknesses, the more they will pick at them to bring you down. Although I’m aware that not everyone is that way, I cannot help but fear it.
I’m stressed… you’ve probably figured that out already. I’m trying to fight it as much as I can. Normally, I can thrust myself into my work or my life to keep it from consuming my soul. However, here recently, I have been struggling with it. I’m hoping it’s just a hiccup and I will get over it soon.
I have to say… Mind dumping feels better than I anticipated.
Normally, when I sit here to write to you all, I have a plan or a concept in mind. I always feel that a reader is more likely to continue reading if there is a focal point to the piece. I’m sure that’s how most of us do it.
That being said, I rather enjoyed this type of writing style as well.
Do you do a mind dump every now and then? Is this the way you do it or do you have another process? — If you don’t do it, are you going to begin now?
This was my first time… How did I do?
🧡Shine Bright, Kayla